20/10/2024
Hey Stars
Friday was one of the saddest and the most beautiful times of my life as Mum passed peacefully to the music of Neil Diamond surrounded by flowers as I was stroking her hair.
Here I witnessed Mum moving on to her next journey, and of course in classic Mum style she did it with a sense of humour and such grace as I know so as she toasted her life in Heaven with a glass of Wine and two ice cubes as she then "burped" and left our world and into the next, no drama just fun, as she took her step to meet her loved ones who were all waiting for her.
Nan with a hug, Stella with a "Come on Luv..", Grandad with a Mexican twist, and all of the loved ones she had in her life waiting for her in the next and there are many :)
Mum is a spirit of love and survival, her love for family, friends and community was always huge, she always believed that you must "Love and accept" and that way you learn, forgive and grow and I have adopted that philosophy all of my life and its still inspirational to me even today
Her zest to get things done was powerful but quiet, she would just do things, if they were wrong she just turn them around, she did not rave about it when she did them. So the village became profitable she just wrote the letter for Renato and I and we changed the law in this county for international gay people, she would give her last penny to her family to help them survive. She would tell you off if you disrepected and she would always love, hug and say to me "Come on Steve you can do it..." and then I did
I know she will be telling me to carry on, keep going and did you get that glass of wine for me lol :)
Mums humour never died, I can still hear Mum laughing and giggling loudly with Stewart and the family, All her sisters and brothers. Auntie Big Bum and her were real comedians and the show never stopped with the love of all of her Sisters and Brothers and there were so many family laughing times which was huge for her and she loved you all so very very much
Even when she could not talk anymore, we would show her the pictures on the phone of you all, she always smiled and gripped mine or Stewart hand and we knew she laughed and loved you still and still those special moments will get us all through our time now
OMG there is so much to tell like her classic, where's my glasses ? always wearing them to her classic Style look of "Sunglasses and glasses on my head realness" as we see in this picture above :) and Mums eyes are alight with laughter and love as we will always remember her
So as I continue to cry, note to self do not watch "Lassie movies"
and its the laughter of Mum laughing with all of you my friends, family and chosen family that gets me through and thats such a huge blessing xx
Mum I miss your laughter, I miss your smiles, I miss our chats, I miss your weekly calls, I miss your fun, I miss all of these things and yet during the hard time through Parkinsons, you taught Stewart and I that we will survive and we will smile again as we will always remember that with the heart ache of missing becomes the warmth of memory as we remember and we always laugh and we can see you and feel you in our hearts as we continue on to make you proud as you would want us to do
Your love will continue to always grow, you gave me the seeds to be just accepted, from how you accepted my fellas and chosen family in my life who were so comfortable with you. You would always laugh and chat with them or cook a great roast dinner for them we always laughed and our America family you were never forgotten Mum was always talking about you all and you were always very special in her heart
So amazing people, as you read the post take a look at Mums picture, see her dazzling spark of happiness that always got us through the darkness of times.
See Mum laughing and enjoying life, remember her dancing at the party, getting on with life and seeing her joy,
Remember her with a glass of wine, you know why she had that glass ? it was always because she was toasting her precious family and friends and she was so proud of you all and knew you can always survive and you can always be happy.
So now through the tears we shed, lets keep the memory of Mum, get your favourite thing and toast to an incredible person that just got on with life and whose captivating giggles and laughter that always happened, will get us through today and tomorrow
I love you Mum, I miss you but how can I ? as I have known real eternal love and laughter and always forever as your only in another room now, with real angels wings keeping an eye on all of us and just making sure we are just happy and telling us you are only a memory away
Love you always Mum, your not gone as you are a part of every single one of us and the joy of your memories is so powerful it will shine in the stars forever
Mum you are truly and always be the ultimate Superstar ###xx
